[05 November 2025 22:42]
I went to see the Nigeran Modernism exhibition yesterday with a few of my friends. I enjoyed it much more than Lee Miller. (Although that might have had more to do with the crowd at Miller. I enjoyed the work itself but it was difficult to spend any amount of time with a specific piece beacuse every time you stopped to look at a photo for more than a fraction of a second a cluster of disgruntled old people would impatiently hover behind you, buzzing with discontent.) We watched Bugonia after exhibiton. I'm still deciding whether or not I liked the film. I'm leaning towards positive though. It was shocking (literally), wild and unexpectedly funny. The cinematography and the soundtrack blew me away. I'm just not sure that I would ever watch it again.
[22 October 2025 21:57]
Home now after almost 2 weeks away. Staying in someone else’s home is exciting in a very voyeuristic way but returning to the familiarity and comfort of your own bed is just unbeatable. I will miss the little cat I was looking after. She was very shy with me at first but by the end of my stay we were friends. I think she took care of me just as much as I took care of her. Tomorrow I return to my real life. The thought is somewhat daunting.
[19 October 2025 12:57]
I will be moving again come January. My craving for change is insatiable. When water is stagnant for too long it becomes a health hazard. It begins to attract insects, bacteria and disease. When life becomes frighteningly monotonous the mind suffers from a similar kind of rotting malaise; restlessness, resentment and lethargy beseige the mind and will consume it entirely unless a change is made. And so I am moving. Perhaps I will change my name again, assume a new identity. To become someone else for even a moment might be enough to cure me.
[18 September 2025 13:27]
September always feels like a fresh start to me. I guess it's because it marks the start of the school year. I haven't been in school for years now but there is still something about the September air that makes me feel refreshed and new. The trees shed their leaves and I shed all of the sun-drenched sadness that stained me in summer. Last week I took a tab of acid and sat on a bench by the river watching the night drift away into dawn again. I realised that I was very small and very young and that I would be okay.
[16 June 2025 21:10]
In in rather unfortunate lapse in judgement I made the mistake of returning to the platform formerly known as 'Twitter'. My brain is rotting inside my skull. Having been away from all social media except Tumblr for the past 9 months, I had forgotten just how bleak the modern internet landscape has become. Now, having been reminded, I feel compelled to return to my personal website and regain control over my experience online.
[03 May 2025 2018]
The kitten keeps trying to eat my fingers and toes. I am amazed by how gentle he has learned to be. I know from experience that kitten claws and teeth can be extremely sharp but he is very careful when he plays. It is wonderful to have such a tiny, new living thing around; everything excites him! I am fascinated watching him interact with the world. Everything must seem so huge and new when you are so small and so young. Right now he is laying under my bed covers, warming my feet with the heat of his tiny body and, occasionally, trying to eat my toes.